I homeschool my children, inspired by Rudolf Steiner and the Waldorf Steiner education community. My eldest child recently turned seven, and so we will begin his first formal year of education this autumn. I have been preparing for over three years now. I have read many of Steiner's lectures, many blogs and many words written by wise and experienced Waldorf teachers. I have learned many new artistic skills and bought far too many resources. I have pondered and analysed. I put together the yearly lesson plan in early January and meditated on it during the Holy Nights. Since then I have changed my mind many times and spent far too much time thinking about all the details, different possibilities and the very best way to approach this first year. Then something dawned on me...
Steiner indicated that what you teach and how you teach it, is far less important than who you are inside and what lives in you. From my observations of the first seven years with this wonderful child, I can validate this as being true for us. It is a big part of what motivates me to continue with my own inner work. I have also learned that I don't have to be perfect, that is not so important. What is important is that I am striving to be the best human being I can be. That is what the children will see and be inspired by. Phew! Right, so now I can relax a little and enjoy this first year.
Steiner never gave a set curriculum as such but he did give many lectures and guidance to those first teachers. Steiner suggested that the teacher has within them what the children need and that ideally, each teacher create his own lessons. Although this resonated as truth within me when I read this, I let doubt interfere with my ability to plan our homeschool year with confidence. This changed when I bought several curriculum packages and noticed that the packages contained amazing, relevant content, yet, the ideas I had myself before I bought the packages, would nourish and inspire my children much more. This makes sense because I know my children so well. I wish I had trusted myself to deliver exactly what my child needs. Since discovering this (and becoming aware of all the help available on a subtle level), I feel confident and excited as we approach this first year.
Many blessings, Carole